pudge
29 March 2013 @ 11:28 pm
How long is this pain going to last? Will I continue to be surprised by the loss of Nelly over and over and over again until I die? It's been over two years, and while I believe there is no set time limit on grief, I was hoping I wouldn't be sobbing over her because I heard a song that reminds me of her (and just about every song from before 2011 reminds me of her [thank god I don't start sobbing with every one of them]). She was such a big part of my life and I miss her so fucking much. We were growing apart a bit but that didn't change the way we loved each other. I want her back. It's so hard without her. There's so much I want to say to her, to tell her. So many movies I want to go see with  (and most likely disagree about haha). So much we were going to do. All gone now. There is a massive empty space in my life. She was so full of love and energy and just ...Nelly.

I'm okay, guys. I just needed to let it out a lil bit. So don't worry, okay? :)
 
 
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